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Another Day

I aim to keep my senses about me as doubt creeps in. Magical thinking is scary because your reality relies heavily on your own perceptions and beliefs against itself. While I do know myself to be in the midst of a Twin Flame connection, my certainty in that gets fuzzy. When I don’t feel like casting any more spells by writing or drawing, it means I allow the flow of the universe to guide my path. That my “work” feels complete and now I am to abide by cruise mode. Yet, my feelings and thoughts go astray, so I journal to keep myself on track. I’ve been in bed resting. I’m not depressive, I’m simply processing between where I’ve been and where I’m going. All I know is that Ryan is in contact with my partner. I trust God/dess that they are energizing our union. This is my ultimate desire. I’ve shared and expressed enough stories throughout the years on my social medias how this relationship is one I love being in. Our souls are what each other has to experience on earth. We had to experien...
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Good Mornings

As spring arises, I rise and shine with a new feature about me. I’ve decided that coffee is part of my past. It’s not a ritual I wanna carry with me into my next life. I can sense my Twin Flame directing me into a higher mode of operation by this stance. I was in the habit of coffee everyday when I woke up; that’s just learned behavior. With or without, my energy level is quite excellent. So I don’t wanna separate myself from my Twin Flame, who is not a coffee person. Who is beyond it and telling me a secret to activating a better awakening is to keep it as an element of who I once was. And that’s easy.  I actually don’t have any addictions. I have habits. I have rituals, routines, and repeats. My personality is just one solid identity. I don’t have multiple characters inside me, I just had to conform to a few different social expectations over the course of my past. I do not have a substance to deliver my mood. My moods are from the natural flow of the go. My beinghood is taken ca...
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"A Household Name"

I might be the only person around who was that skinny; and maybe I’m the only one not a fan of They Might Be Giants. Not throwing shade, I just never heard their music. It wasn’t written in my star chart. While music is a central theme of my life, I was born and raised on various other tones in my bones and home. Philadelphia’s hit music station Q102 raised me right. The 1990s were booming with diverse artists across genres. I had early onset Beetlemania with The Backstreet Boys in my innocent youth. MTV showed me Good Charlotte with twins Benji & Joel Madden, leading me to my first concert. A girl of the past, present and future time, it was most recently at my 34th birthday celebration at my dad’s house he showed my brothers and I CDs he found from a long time ago… one of which was my old burned Built To Spill cd! Yes, some energies are eternal. Petey and Kiki and I went to Vans Warped Tour to see Motion City Soundtrack. I was in love with Commit This To Memory. Still am! My life...
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Very Vivacious

Ventura & Virginia: the places which populate my mind. The people were living it right. My partnership made it across materialism, into the SoulPlane. Metaphorically, many places occupy my personality. My booh and I traveled often. I cherish our tourism. Being a gozo journalist means my duty is to record my experiences for entertainment and enlightenment. “Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas” by Hunter S. Thompson, I skimmed through it somewhat recently via a pdf book. My homework is to connect culture across an American timeline. I like to keep myself lightly un-knowledgeable; I haven’t read Trout Fishing In America but I’ve heard it’s one a the classics. I like keeping mystery so my poetry is authentic. People ask me, “as a writer, who do you read?” And i confess that i don’t. Because I wanna keep my voice on paper genuine. Nonetheless, I am a copy cat of many artists.  Yes, I’ve been to Las Vegas. It was another one of the best weddings I’ve been to. We had a blast on the West Co...
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Night Owl

As myriads of stories float amid my mind while I lay down, I rise to record the moment. Living in the present is a gifted headspace. My transcendental mediations reveal my life to be abundant with approval; inside my own created livelihood characterized by my relationship on Love(s).  Half of me feels super humbled and holy; and half of me wants to be a comidienne. One of my heroes is Cameron Esposito, I haven’t kept up with her recently but she shaped influence upon my life early on. When my night time identity is aliiive, I come to life as an open mic performer on the screen. It’s excellent for me to have gone to Ventura Community College at the harbor comedy club. It was absolutely the path my Soul had to experience. I was voted funniest in my 8th grade graduation class for being a prankster and rapper. In high school I was voted funniest sen10r for wearing ugly glasses in my yearbook photo. My friends and I made prank phone calls and sketch comedy videos too. I always had a lit...
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Clearing. The Air

play “Clarity” by Zedd. Gm. It’s me, the general manager of these feminist monologues. My writings are curing my life story, of the past and present time. I’m coming to realize greater with each and every dawn how truly magical my Partnership is. My spiritual growth is magnified daily. Yesterday, my mother and I went to a new church and I snapped into laughter; I was slightly embarrassed because nothing about what the people were saying was “humorous”, however, my rare disease has moved me to an innate emotional response. Someone turned around and gave me a dirty look, because they might’ve suspected I was “making fun” of something bad. I am classically misconceived, but I'm mature enough to feel myself still practicing my personal Spiritualism and know that’s truly in the hands of God(dess). The church was small and full. There was an opener to the show, who passed around a microphone to folks who wanted to inquire for something for us all to pray about. I liked that. Then the pas...
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Word Salad 2

“in True Love no dealbreakers… strikes tho.” -jade etcetera tyde I tend to make people fall in love with me through my art. This is my natural mode of operation I’ve known my entire life. Lady Gaga, I was born this way. On the right track, when I moved to the “world stage” that was the twin oaks intentional community, I was clear in what I was looking for - It all. Work/Life balance, professional and personal, and most vitality - partnership. The partnership could’ve taken many shapes, as open minded/hearted as I am. This promise land of sorts was the fresh start my soul had to experience. Upon landing in the farm hotel, I kept marching to the beat of my own drum as a tall dark and handsome poet. Sometimes, rejection is a form of acceptance. I learn this again and again as I carry on forth. My creative expressions were well-received. Not every piece I created was an A freaking plus but not every side of the real me is rated PG. My messages were understood because even though I was alwa...
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