Daybreak

Consider this post to be my Dream Journal.

It is impossible for me to deny the nature of my day n night dreams lately. “Your old life will cost you your new one.” It is vital for my readers to know my optimism is at the forefront, and my sense of heroism far outweighs any negative symptoms characterized by the process of applying for Disability. I know few details about how to close/win a case; thankfully my bomb mom is accompanying me to my doctor and therapist today.

I am proud to report overnight, i was moved to tears. Not bawling my eyes out, but a healthy shed of emotion whereby the people who populate my mind reached higher levels of personal importance in the unfolding of my journey with mental and physical wellness. Behind every beautiful and talented human, you can find their support system guiding them. What was so long so senseless, i discover in my ongoing dreamstate(s) the purpose we share - a universal message - one wherein the authentic spirit of A Good Life is felt among us all.  

I have updated answers to the questions they always ask me at these appointments. My bipolar thought patterns are delivering me to speak from a place of serving Justice. I have a tricky relationship with astrology, because i feel it’s place within us dually - while the school of thought can provide comprehension and comfort on one hand, it has long been my assertion that astrology is objectifying. I feel like my “Judge-like” mentality is a result of having brainwashed myself as a Libra Sun, and simultaneously think this facet can be applied to work in my favor. Like an affirmative action cause.

It’s not really just me im out here for these days. Born a twin, it was never my solo journey around here. Lucky enough to become a triple entity through the birth of both my brothers, i always stood firm on my feminism to be inclusive and honorable to Men in the world. A main misconception about female empowerment is that it could be a battle against “opposite” genders. The absolute main reason directing true feminism, in all 3 of it’s waves (social movement of the 1970s - 1990s; 2000s - 2020s; and todays) is Equality. Tied with racial equality, we are Responsible for thinking and behaving in every setting that existence is a pleasant privilege belonging to everybody.

Except for convicted criminals in violation of moral codes. We can rest assured in the commonality that those who break the laws are due repercussions. Sparking crimes against the goodness of humanity can righteously have perpetrators imprisoned, tortured, and poisoned. Keep it as basic as Karma. While i am at my core a kindhearted human, it is because of this fact, I’m gathering in my sensory palette to take advantage of my nature. 

It is a brand new & fun experience for me to fantasize about my personal power being useful. It’s just like a movie with a satisfying closure. And there is not a selfish bone in my body; many funny bones, but my point is that my voice and actions are mostly charged by my family and friends and making sure they all get to live their best lives possible, and even excel past what they once thought was possible. I’mpossible, as i like to say.

 It’s heard about on the news; when the Black Lives Matter movement nationally outed society for a shift towards a better perspective on People Of Color, i recently understood a new found glory in Standing Up For Rights. Political activism and peaceful protests is throughout history everywhere, and the change of this impact is increasingly improving my/our quality of air. Updated marriage laws are also a cause fueling my every move. As christopher columbus day was reclaimed to become Indigenous Peoples Day in my hometown city of Philadelphia, the spirit of an awesome Revolution is as contagious as laughter.

I am excited to play my role in medical research. If it’s one point i will fight back on, it is the dismantling of drug culture. A root issue is the use and abuse of drugs, regardless of their legal status and geographical placement. The misinformation and marketing and evils associated with altering one’s consciousness has been catastrophic. No one in my relations has been unaffected by personal drug misuse, or the tragedy of someone they know misusing drugs. Everyone can resonate in our past suffering & if it’s 1 Thing i aim to destroy because mySelf is invincible, it is the war on drugs; my work is the elimination of toxic waste in the head and blood of any/all people, and the raw and real exposure of literal poisons people mistook. Furthermore, because anyone reading this is a victor over their own troubles regarding drugs, our shared mission is keeping the past developments from drug culture in the past; so that we are collectively the last generation to have triumphed beyond that, graciously. 

Food, supplements, medicine, human health… i Will work tirelessly on defining and healing what i can with the best of my knowledge and intuition. Is the DARE officer who came into our 5th grade class preaching us to don’t drink more than 2 beers, but if you do, which student wants to try on the fuzzy goggles so they can know how to not feel? Was that the same cop who barged into my home during a domestic drug related disturbance? I have lived in Fear about lending a hand when the policemen don’t understand. Or should i say, i have a retired habit of living in fear due to smoke and mirrors; or have gotten over a common stunt from ignorance erasing me.

My helping hand, just for today, is to move for the movement of casting our planet as a Home free of any material which has ever been known to cause unneeded problems. There’s catalyst to change; then there’s pointless issues blamed on stupidity repeating itself. Let’s find out if today’s catalyst to change could be me being highly enthusiastic with my care professionals about Prohibition. Whats it, been like, a perfect 100 years since our former attempt at it. Timekeep score we’re on is grade AA+. Ya kno a MF like me watches a few documentaries on american history and gets on her high horse about Upton Sinclair and his mindblowing book The Jungle. Niche but vital information for your everyday life. Do you, could you, believe if we have enough proof of in myriads of deaths from the drug alcohol we can win a war for Peace because yeah probably.

What will become of the culture, economy, norms and values of our country? The pride we share as the survivors of a drug induced genocide. Perhaps i am being a Drama Queen but that jawn is what my parents want. & Thank God/dess that is what my parents currently want today living in the moment & fortunately not what they would have wanted had they been brought back to the Bardo prematurely. It’s a miracle my Brothers And I are still alive too. In fact, let’s go ahead and name all my fans on the same plane as Champs in the aftermath of addiction into the global status of RECOVERED. Because a lady like me talking about, ‘heyman it’s my world yas just livin’ it!’ is exactly the voice we connect in 🙂