Daybreak

An absolute fact is that rare diseases aren’t rare.

This was the first year, World Schizophrenia Day, appeared in my newsfeed from twitter.com. May 24th is apparently recognized as an awareness day for the estimated 1% of the population diagnosed with the medical condition. Now, where National Taco Day has regularly shown up on my timeline, it is clear that fun holidays are one thing, and on the other hand we shape society’s inclusive revolution.

I walked out of psychology college to intentionally change my position in the field. I don’t wanna be on the “normal” side of this… i wanna carry on with my tiny spark of madness! You mustn’t lose your talents, as you owe them to yourself to create and fulfill an enjoyable role in your existence. I couldn’t help but to feel my fingers needing to ditch this frat party to write down the poetry my mind began hearing as a result of learning about life in class during the day, and having the lesson echo each night in my social settings. Feeling like i could rely on my own internal dialogue more so the conversations people offered, was an initiating point of my genius.

People like saying there is no stigma with mental illness, and then literally act otherwise. It’s basically the “i don’t want to get gay married, but i don’t care if you do”... the equivalent sentiment being, “i pity your condition, and it makes me feel better about myself.” To my utter disbelief, many people feel afraid to deviate from their fixated comfort zones, and their set narratives about how things are in general. Schizophrenics, well, we have an inborn desire to sort of do just that; express through the arts, give healing by its effect, and shine in the purely good decisions which show their unique selves in a light which proves the stigma false. The correct way to be is, “you are seen for who you are, and play an equal and vital part in the makeup of our magnificent globe”. 

Could there be exceptions yes, unfortunately ive crossed paths with a disturbed dog-man who is a case of psychosis explained out to be too broken to function. Are there exceptions made for every stereotype yes. Is every schizo a thriving creative artist no, but my direct experience cannot deny the reasons most of us excel our snapped state and shift into victory. Ya know, i turn my peculiarities into a mindset of prosperity. Fortunately, my catatonia turned into interpretive dances, my multiple personalities landed me every job I performed top-notch at, and my antsy fingers found what they were looking for - BEINGAWRiiiT3R<3.

Jealousy had been the funniest human phenomena i coulda ever had the pleasure to experiment with. The number one thing about the gorl from The Best Improvised Surprise Wedding is i literally lost all the bones in my body who could think i wasn’t, objectively, the G.O.A.T. when it wasn’t egomania or narcissism, it was the confidence i earned from my new and improved self-made teeth, blended idyllically with requited Love, that had me immune to sensing anybody actually vibrating at my high as apple pie in the sky frequency. What i only understand in hindsight, is that people, to my dismay, legitimately hate people who are intelligent. Girls literally hate my Venus sun n moon. Boys literally hate my speaking. Women literally detest my ability to make art, when they can’t. Men literally feel threatened by someone who can walk away (and in my athletic case, run away lol), since that someone has more freedom and choices available based on their mind and physical attraction. I once reached out to be loved for who i am, and super ironically, sparked the opposite. It’s not that folks detest an average joe affected by an illness; it’s that their insecurities come out from a character sculpted by superseding their ideas of normalcy.      

My favorite trap, even including the time i forfeited one life changed my name and joined a commune, is the trap that’s like, “hA~hA, nobody will love you based on the eternal impact of this episode!” haha idk if that even makes sense, but like, the idea that my masters (degree) be saying, “you can explore reality and be polyamorous for a decade buuut you will return to the scene of the crime once you are Enlightened, lil Bodhidharma.” lmfaooo whooo knooows.

Voices in my head, well it is a privilege to have them. Esp considering i’ve met ppl who don’t seem to be lucky enough to have any. Sorry was that mean? Have i been Meantine and Krismean in my life yes, but does it reflect an abrasive lack of regard for humanity and our morals, quite the opposite. In fact, sensitivity is the gift embedded in the poet who made your eyes teary at that open mic down South. That’s not an effective-disorder; that's the power of Divine Order empowering us all to Awaken nowadays. Everybody, on levels small to grand, is intrinsically motivated to march to their melody in making happiness and peace out of what we can. We’re driven by our own instinctual and important mission to have a content livelihood on this charming planet. Much in the fashion i have moved my audience to a healthy emotional response, I too have been moved to laughter - a dark kind at that - from the stories which resonated deep in my soul. And that deserves a tribute today. Not just for me, but for the diversity and glorification of history.

Everyday is world schizophrenia day for a first generation American like yours truly. It feels closer to my heart than a month of Pride, or a Pagan weekend, and is probably tied with the warmhearted celebration of my birthday, as i share that day with my biotwin (birthright established) & i share this new Day of Recognition with my decided Twin[s] (birthright manifested). Is it genetic? Your honor, i am my parent’s daughter. I am a designer product of my culture. And i am Christlike. I don’t have astigmatism or cholesterol, or anything stopping me from breathing In love & Out utopia. im not worried about succeeding, as the skinniest is the prettiest…but make damn sure you actually love this supermodel for her beautiful mind as well. The most pristine is the churchmouth who is as real as the unicorn you made in the cosmic connection of a babe rainbow inside 4 elements - air, earth, water, fire - fallin’ da freak in luv at purrrfect timing & stayin’ cool n true as purple yellow red and blue 👏